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Wednesday, November 26, 2003
bear. i need you more now then ever. i know you feel it in the air. somethings wrong. if there was ever a time to use your calling card, its now.
i called your cellphone again to leave you a nice messy message. nello got the worst of it, and beth at work. i slobbered on nello's stepmom too i think. kinda feel bad about that now.
17 more days.
make them go quicker.
 Posted at 06:46 pm by jerseygypsy
Thursday, November 13, 2003
so the i got the new blink cd. nello hid it in my bag. hes a sneaky sneaky. ;o) but yeah. its really awesome. you just have to get passed the fact that its not, in any way shape or form blink 182.
i highly reccommend it.
i also highly reccommend tanning. cuz apparently thats what i'll be doing for the next month straight. tan til my skin falls off. i'm now the hindu girl in Hair. so adam told me he wants my ass as dark as possible. sigh. now i'm gunna go to new hampshire with nello looking like i just came back from the cruise. well, at least he'll be able to find me in the snow. ;oD
oh. i dont know if i mentioned that. Nello and I have a new destination.  New Hampshire. kinda random.. but would you ever describe us as anything else? ...besides sleepy. we'll be there the weekend before christmas. eeek. i'm so happy. he makes me smile that fellow.
two years comin up quick. but comin on strong. apparently the second anniversary is the cotton anniversary... good. i need more qtips anyway.
i can't sleep again. i think i might be on london time. (ps. bear. tracy's icon is carebears. it kinda freaked me out. i think if you two met, the apocolypse would happen... like having a starbucks across the street from another)
speaking of tracy. i get to have dinner with the lovely and the wonderful miss skylar tomorrow before rehearsal. wee! i'm so excited. the cherry hill food court is THE premier place these days.
i heard "liza with a Z" for the first time today. its a good thing she snorting something, cuz if she wasn't she wouldnt have an excuse for such trash. sigh.
i make my triumphant leonia rerturn next week. a president of the world reunion you might say. grant is apparently in the worst production of Into The Woods ever rendured on a modern stage, so of course mike and i have to go support. i still think we should take david moses out to ice cream beforehand. it would be swellar.
the VIP room will be in full swing.
oh and KJ. best hugs in the world.. maybe its cuz i'm like 3 feet off the ground, but its an experience.
tomorrow is also opening day for billy and KJs wiffle ball team. the donkey punchers. i wish there was a spring wiffle ball organization so i could play when i go back. but alas. i dont believe i can do that.
tomorrow i meet with jim again. i wish it would all just go away. i've done my part. i did my time. why does this have to do with me!? i had to fend for myself. .no one helped me. sigh. i never thought being a good person would be so frustrating. but. karma my friends. i got us into this. i can do my best to get him out. no sense saving myself now. i already drowned myself.
uuuuum worst news EVER. someone stole my jack head from my car antenna. yeah. bastards. to explain in more detail, i turn to my friend.. .the AIM Log....
mei went to get into my car from nello's school parking lot.
me:and..
tx jay: oh no
me: my Jack head was GONE!
tx jay: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
me: yes
tx jay: BASTARDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for those of youu who aree laughing. seriously, this no joking matter. i called nello i was so upset. and i almost cried in thet process. I STOLE THAT FAIR AND SQUARE IN TEXAS YEARS AGO.. sigh. karma's a bitch. i need a new one. its the only way i can find my car cuz its so small. so i just looked for the white little ball with a scarf and i was set to go. i'm so mad right now. i can get them off the Jack-in-the-Box website for like .99 but those arent as cool. this one was from texas. off a big truck. the first time i ever rode in the back of a pickup truck. mine had a little hat and a scarf. i think i need a new one to mourn the old... and so i dont wander the parking lot aimlessly.
i went on a road trip recently. my car was a trooper. didnt give me a spat of trouble. then again.. i didnt let cody drive. thats right folks. cody and i. one car. .3 hours. from west chester to washingto dc. all for the love of brand new and kaitlin of course. shes a fun one. . we went to the monuments and bought tshirts, the whole nine yards. i want the pictures though. just so i can have a picture of us in front of the Lincoln Memorial in my car. its pretty badass.
i think i'm getting tired. thats a good sign. being that its 3 am.
and ps. to dave and eric. i'll be coming to boston to look at emerson college. so if you want to hang out or show me around, i dunno something. let me know. ;o)
later. tng.
Posted at 03:19 am by jerseygypsy
Monday, November 03, 2003
baybah.
i wish i could call you. i almost did the other night. just to leave a fun message on your voice mail. but figured your plan might be cancelled by now.
i read your diary. please dont be sad. and if you are. ask random person how to use a phone card. i want to be your constant to lean on. but i can't be. i love you boo. i can't be happy knowing how much you're feeling right now.
there's a girl in Hair named Tracey. she reminds me of you. she keeps me sane for right now. she dresses like you. wears her hair the same. has the same attitude from what i can tell. i haven't spoken to her much. but i think shes amazing cuz although no one can replace you, shes getting me through the lonliness.
bear. don't fret. but dont keep yourself sane by saying "this happens." it wont work. it will still tear you up just the same. i know. just accept it for whatever it may be. it sounds cold. but develop the shell again and try not to feel for a little while. let the sunshine but nothing else in. .in dorm situations like these, its all you can do. engross yourself in school work.
i'm so sorry babe. really. i am. enclose yourself in your space. build a fort if you have to. just dont let it hurt you while you're there. .dont let it ruin your time.
come home and lay in my lap while i play with your hair as you cry. let the feeling of home heal you.
only about 6 weeks.
40 days.
960 hours.... and most of them you can sleep.
i don't know what else i can say. .
i love you.
i miss you.
dont cry.
i said dont.
no.
;oD
i hope i can make this a private entry.
love always.
a constant in your life.
Posted at 02:22 am by jerseygypsy
Saturday, October 25, 2003
yea, kerry is added to the blog. wooo. ok.. finally home in merry ole england. italy -- awesome. i rode in a gondola for fuck's sake. i've been waiting forever to see italy and now i have. ah.. big contented sigh there. check that one off the list.
so we took a bus there.. 25 hours on a bus from london to venice. it was cool that my passport was stamped for france, but what a long fuckin bus ride. venice was amazing, it is beautiful and has a nice pace to it.
look! i'm in venice.
ok.. yay to new blog.. i hope it works. thanks twish for inviting meee. Posted at 05:14 pm by kerrbear
 hi.
its late. or early. whatever.
baseball mike is here. he got here about an hour and a half ago. sometimes you just need to talk. i'm glad i'm the one he can call. hes seeping on the couch now. my puppy is protecting him. good boy, jack. i wish i was sleeping. can't though. dunno why. again.
this makes me miss swedesboro. i havent seen him since we moved out. that saddens me. if he moves to florida it will make me way sadder though.
brian leaves for floridaa november 3rd. that saddens gina, which saddens me.
but she has a ring now, so it doesnt matter really. i'm happy for her, and sad at the same time. which is an odd feeling.
vegas is cancelled. i'm not too bummed. now i can spend new years with nello. and we can take a trip of our own. .Oo la la. i did want to go though. too much money.
i beat the Island of Dr Brain today. i'm a loser and downloaded it. but it was good clean 3rd grade fun. i'm real proud i beat it. but prolly should be boasting if it took an hour to do or something. i don't think what i did is that impressive. except for the fact that i actually found the game itself. old school. {.vecchio scuola (?) } that excites me a lil bit.
in other news. i quit staples bry myers style. .not as classy as leaving during a break.. just not showing up or calling. ah well. thats what the papery was for. .i love that place. theres so much to do. and people to talk to. i dont feel like an isolated postal worker. well. .for now anyway.
 i think nello and i finally have a halloween costume we agree upon. can't tell you. might jiinx it. you'll have to see it.
however. i can inform you of how bry reacted to my mentioning the idea to him....
bry: hahahaahhah
bry: thats soooooooo sweet
bry: :-D
me: we're so gay.
bry: ahaha yes you are, but its cool
...bry became one of my favorites today. .i mean hes always up on my lists. but he was in rare form today for whatever reason.
also. i want to live with kj. peanut butter and jelly, cereal, and ice cream only. (with the occational roll with 'i can't believe its not butter' spread smoothy across the surface) no real food in our house. whats the point? it wont be eaten by us thats for sure.
bill got the asian chick. i think. i hope. i have to get the full story. but he was sure to text message me about it, so it had to be good.
bry and sierra are at tcnj right now. i want to chill with them. they're fun. i thought it wrong to go up just to visit nello's friends and not nello. especially since a) i was there 3 days straight already this week and b) bry and sierra live like 20 min from my house, and i'm gunna drive 50 to chill for a bit? get outta here you bostard.
i wanna be baseball manager when i get back to school. chill out with some old friends. i saw Ulmer the other day. made me smile. hes so nice. i miss him. saw Lauria too. and Scrappy and his pretty girl too. i was hoping for a Murphy appearance, but i think he's too old and WAY too cool for a little one like me to hang out with. ;o)
come to think about it, when i went for the whiffle ball game the other day. i saw a lot of people i used to talk to a lot last year. mike, brett, all the baseball gods, cindy, shannon, sheila, bruce, rozy roz. no derreck yet. i'm waiting. i even knocked on his door to see whats up. hes never around.
does it really matter though? kj and i will whop em all with our snowball status. i can't wait. i didnt go last year. .. i do need a date though... .i hope nelski decides to come and dance and have a ball. could be just about the most amusing time ever!
wow. that was cheerleader status right there.
come see HAIR: the American Tribal Love Rock Musical
December 11-13
Walt Whitman Arts Center
i recommend coming stoned. but don't take my word for it...
Posted at 06:08 am by jerseygypsy
Sunday, October 19, 2003
okay. so. today i was on research duty. my best buddy baseball mike invited me to a wedding he was in. i wanted to go, of course, and said yes. but when my sister got wind of it, i was to take notes. fine with me, i wasn't going to know anyone anyway.
singing at weddings: unless you have a trained ear, don't trust yourself that your friends can sing. and better yet, don't force your friends to sit through the gagging solos of hymns. i think even God had to hold his ears. except for the brides sister. she was genuinely good. i thought she was 15 by her voice alone, but apparently she's 18. ah well.
food: be sure that the food you choose is something everyone likes. Chicken Florentine. yeah. spinach is involved. more the likely 70% of your guests will be scraping that shit apart. oh. and when you pick a reception hall. be sure they don't burn their rolls too. cuz mine sucked. and that was the only thing i really enjoyed. also. if you're going to serve iced tea. .make it sweetened. honestly. does ANYONE like unsweetened iced tea? and if you answer yes. then too bad. you're the minority. deal with it.
dress code:the problem with these weddings with young couples is that no one has really been to a formal event before. or they're just retarted and don't know what to wear to a wedding. what constitutes formal, informal, or casual. this was clear when i saw at least 3 women my age in shitty sweaters and black pants. fine, you don't like wearing a dress? buy a suit then. they're slimming anyway, fatass. and for all those brides out there, dont choose strapless dresses for your bridesmaids. they were cute. yes. but having your bridesmaids shifting and pulling up their dressing through your ceremony and reception = distracting and just flat out gross to watch. they bride was great in hers. it fit perfectly, she never touched or fixed herself. however. detatchable trains are a plus ladies. this girl fell over more times from people stepping all over her dress or her just tripping over its masses.
anyway. thats all for now. anyone who is interested in going to a wedding. heres my advice. make sure a) your date is NOT in the wedding party *they don't even sit with you at dinner* b) if your date is in the wedding party, make sure you know someone else other then them. *i love mr and mrs gulli. cuz they were the only other people i knew. but it still dragged on forever til about 5 when mike finally got around to coming to sit with us... yeah the wedding started at 3*
 i did however catch the bouquet. which is kinda neat. i didnt even want it either. mrs gulli and mike forced me to go up with all the other women. my theory was, i dont know these people, what right do i have to take someone else's keepsake? so i stood in the back. arms crossed. not caring. and low and behold. the shitty lands at my feet. i looked at it for a few seconds, waiting for someone else to pick it up. then just as i bent down and swept it away, two women dove for it. .suckers.
when i was walking around with the flowers i did think i was going to get jumped by the bitter bridesmaids. i heard one of them complaining to the bride. i laughed. i guess i just dont have luck with girls.
the awesome part was that mike caught the garter. .with a leap and a slide i might add. so at least some stranger wasnt reaching up my dress to put a garter on my leg in front of a wedding photographer, videographer, bride and groom and family i didn't know i might add. it was mike. which made it i guess a little less nerve racking then it already was. so i was only 90% scared, as apposed to my original 110%.
i'm tired. i hate nello for making me watch that damn movie the other night. he slept through it. i had to suffer alone. well. with eric's assistance. ^thanks for the warnings^
i think i'll try to sleep again. .work tomorrow at 12 with the foxiest of beths. its now 2:30.
night.
Posted at 02:25 am by jerseygypsy
Friday, October 17, 2003
i would just like to take a moment and recognize the man we all know and love named matty wilson.
matty and i have been through so much together that i can't even remember.. well i can't remember because of all the alcohol we were going through at the time, but thats not the point. the point is. through bleach or through me tryin to be tough, matty's got my back. there to threaten and protect me from any guy i pick a fight with... which comes in handy when you're 5'4" and think you're tough. ;o)
matty : its not the tough factor....i wouldnt care if i got my ass beat...its the whole experience of just fighting for a good cause
me: haha i'm glad i'm considered a good cause
matty: in my book ur from m town ....and us m townies stick together
i also forgot to add that matt. i'll never forget the time we were so messed up we were actually GOOD at beerpong. and we beat nello and jay. .
me and you. underdogs. beat nello and jay. the all stars of the table.
in josh's first track house. i couldnt see. you couldnt walk. but damn. were we good.
many a coors light we've pounded. many a shots have been taken. i know i spend countless hours with him, but can't think of a single conversation we've ever had. THAT my dear reader is friendship.
so matty. matt wilson. i hearby raise my glass to you. protector of me. ;o) fellow mTowner. one of the few who consider me mTown at all (i'm by association i swear it!).
anywho. heres to you. matt wilson. you're the best.
ps. raise another one to the yanks. and to Aaron Boone.. where the hell did he come from!?
my house went nuts. seriously. my sister started singing the sports center theme song. i sat on the couch and clapped rediculously. mom screamed. the dogs barked... dad cooked london broil... we're all on crack. i promise.
no really. come over some time.
gotta love it.
Posted at 01:39 am by jerseygypsy
Friday, October 10, 2003
 so. shania twain tonight. she IS hot. i think if there was ever a woman i would leave nello for. it would be her. .. sorry babe.
i'm excited. last time she was around was sometime in the 90s and i didnt get to go. :o( so this is the official popping of my shania live cherry if you will.
i think i would consider her my idol. i guess. besides the fact that i loathe country music besides her and alan jackson, and the occational tim magraw. i used to tell people if you combined Shania and Pat Benetar, thats what i wanted to be when i grew up. I guess i'm not doing a shabby job. ..besides the fact that i dont have record contract, a following, nor do i play a musical instrument. but i have a boyfriend who plays guitar which is all Pat started out with, so i'm not too far off. ;o)
in response to pete's overwhelming desire for more jokes. be my comedic writer then. i apologize, i'm not the almighty KJ. never will be. so quit your bitchin.
ps. maybe you could consider kj to be my idol to then. nah. hes too much of a sexy beast to be my idol. i could never reach those standard.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANE!
the big 1-5. whoa.
you'll be a man someday...
love ya pal!
tcnj this weekend. well. saturday and sunday at least. not in time to party with big bill though. sad enough.
more importantly, eddie izzard saturday. blimy! i'm so pumped. i want to meet him just to tell him what killer shoes he has. and that kerry is in his country wishing she was here.
ah yes kerry. shes on her way to Venice right now. so theres NO way i feel bad for her not seeing eddie. i'd trade places with her in a second. well. if rob were replaced by nello of course. ;o)
ps. mom and i made a female scarecrow. but it wound up looking quite manly. so dad named it eddie. love it.
I'm not in the mood
To be shy--
to stand by--and not give it a try
No, I'm not in the mood
To stay home--
be alone--face the night on my own
No, I'm not in the mood (to say)--
to say--(to say)--to say no!
I won't be layin' low--uh, uh
It's not my style to take it slow--uh, uh, uh
No, it ain't like me to slack--uh, uh
There's no time for holdin' back--
uh, uh, uh
..oh that shania ;o)
Posted at 06:43 pm by jerseygypsy
Saturday, October 04, 2003
 so i've decided on halloween. i was originally going to be wonder woman. but then i saw this chick and fell in love.
but i dunno. every year i make plans with these cute little outfits, and then never go anywhere. last year nell and i looked so good. but fell asleep. tragic. so this year i'm just gunna keep my fingers crossed and hope that we have somewhere to go before i spend 40 bucks on a costume.
eh well. i'm sure it would get used at somepoint... i could always do childrens theater in camden and read them fairy tales.... ;o)
side note. if i do go any where. i want to match nello. cuz i love that. i think its the cutest. the Mr and Mrs Viking idea was cute. i love this outfit though, but what would he be? a cow? hahaa. actually. thats not such a bad idea.
i'm glad i amuse myself.
so in short. if anyone has an inkling as to where i should go this halloween. let me know.
Posted at 02:03 pm by jerseygypsy
euh. i feel like such shit. even my own bones are revolting against me. bah. will i ever return to my normal state of living?
i missed thirsty thursday. as you might have guess. more importantly i missed motionCITYsoundtrack in Baltimore with kaitlin. and will more then likely not be attending their show in philly. ack. i've lost my MCS fandom status. but if i went. theres a good chance dying would have occured.
so i had a dream last night. a wierd i'm sick and am on drugs kinda dream. adam was casting caberet. richard was choreographing.. anyway. .they cast me as the EmCee. a male role. and i was kinda flippant about it. funny how tonight mat called and offered me the part of Hiram, in Hair. a male role. directed by adam.. .choreographed by richard... spooky... then somehow i wound up a police officer in a Mickey Ds (that was attatched to an elementry school) looking for rappers and other suspects with drugs.. so maybe that will come true too. ;o)
so this role though. i dont know how to feel about it yet. cast in a male role. i dont know how i'm going to sing his parts, but i guess they have it all figured out. i have faith.... sort of. :o)
i hope that adam will maintain friends status with me during this production. i understand that in rehearsals i can't bitch at him cuz hes my bud. but i mean. like tonight. i just wanted to talk to adam, cuz thats who i would call normally if i needed advice on a role, or if i had a question about a show. but he wasnt taking phone calls. quite agrivating. i just wanted to talk to adam. not mr. halpin director extrodinaire.
i dont know who i would ask when i had questions about something in the show if hes not speaking to the actors he worked with.
they could have just been busting my chops. but lets hope they weren't ...cuz that was a terrible feeling and i would never wish that on either mat or adam.
if it was done purposly cuz you knew how i would feel about it. and you just wanted to me feel like more shit this week then i already do. then thank you. now i know where you truly stand.
.. i wonder what the rest of the cast list looks like ..
Posted at 03:07 am by jerseygypsy
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